Hopeless!

Do u think life is interesting?
The life that u have strived for
The life thats been the essence of every breath that u have inhaled
The very soul and spirit of every single emotion that has consumed u

A life that has been dictated by those around u
a life that has been corrupted by the public image that is u
a life led by u because u dare not lead another
a life that lives but yearns for life

What is the reward of enacting a play that is of no significance
especially to u
just because it conforms to stereotypes

The subtle pressure of our parents
the greedy pressure of our relatives
the peer pressure that we subjugate to
the merciless pressure of your inamorata

Life is sacred but is it worth living
Considering it has nothing unique to offer
Sheep in a herd is what I wud say
u , me , the beggar in the street corner temple
the flower seller and the psuedo-sophisticated bitch
In an exploited mercedes of another exploited entity.

What would u give to live what u imagine
however coarse , however expensive
however thrilling, however disgusting
however and whatever it may be.
especially because it is ultimately someone else
Who decides what is thrilling and what is disgusting.

It is not impossible to live your imagination
It is just that we dont know how to
What is life, when it is lived according to impressions?

Can we learn to be free?
Can we be the spirit that really doesnt care about others
Can this thought ever germinate
I wonder
And I feel hopeless.